It’s noon on Sunday as I make my way back to Toronto after a weekend spent partying with friends. Fifteen minutes into the ride I begin crying quietly to myself. This outburst of emotion is a consequence of a combination of extreme fatigue and intense hangover. It’s likely I haven’t eaten enough the last four days, and I certainly haven’t slept enough. I find myself longing for the company of my most recent ex one minute and in the next minute, I’m wondering if I’ll hear from the person I slept with last night.

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